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09 August 2011 @ 12:54 am
Hello LJ friends. It's been too long... And I have to say I'm annoyed with FB land, but that's another rant.

I am looking for new employment. Joy. The writing on the wall regarding future funding for community based HIV prevention is now finally clear to me. I took a 20% pay cut with the rest of my co-workers in the name of teamwork and bowing to the reality that public funding is drying up across the land with unpopular disease prevention leading on the chopping block. All I can say is good luck to this bizarre theory that people at highest risk (i.e poor and abused people) will all shuffle into their doctor's office (ahah!) and request HIV testing and PrEP and therefore end the pandemic.

So, don't look all shocked five years from now when there are no needle exchanges, methadone clinics, condom buckets at your local bar, and every other person you know has Herpes/HIV/syphilis...I told you so and all that, lol.

In the last month I've put out 30+ applications/resumes we'll see what happens. Who am I to think I'm special and won't end up eating cat food like the rest of us though right?

Oh, yea. And I was greeted this morning at work with the news that one of our long-term survivor clients had her trachea and jugular ripped out by her boyfriend via fork to the neck. So, that was just icing on the turd cake I guess...go humanity!
20 November 2009 @ 10:36 pm
went very well. Extremely intense. Heartbreaking and painful as always. Please keep those we have lost in your thoughts and prayers this weekend.
Sunday, November 15th is the start of Transgender Awareness Week! Kick off this important event with the TransFM charity podothon! From 6pm-10pm on Sunday, November 15th, we'll be raising money for the Transgender Emergency Fund (TEF). Guests will include Gunner Scott, Director of the Massachusetts Trqansgender Political Coalition (MTPC), Jesse Pack, co-founder of TEF, members of the current steering committee, and many more.

Tune in next Sunday to the TransFM broadcast and join us! To tune in, set your browsers to http://www.transfm. squarespace. com or listen directly at http://www.live365. com/stations/ ethanstp.

TransFM welcomes live callers, so dial up the studio at 978-518-1835!
For more info about the TEF, check out http://www.tgemerge ncyfund.org.
09 October 2009 @ 11:27 am
Viola Fields and the Dynamic Divas present Divas Live 2!

Featuring: Roxie Van Cartier, Gia Deveroux, Kim Fusion, Nikita Le Femme, Savannah Night, and Olivia Bouyea
$5 at the door, more donations welcome! 21+
The Hotel Vernon, Kelley Square, Worcester Massachusetts.
October 10th, 9PM

This is a benefit show for the Transgender Emergency Fund, which provides financial assistance for low-income transgender people living in Massachusetts. For more info about the Transgender Emergency Fund, visit:

16 September 2009 @ 04:50 pm
So this summer I have really been toying with the idea of leaving HIV/AIDS work for good. In some ways (though not nearly as horrible as their experiences, imo) the experience of disillusionment and disappointment I've felt is similar to friends of mine who have gone to work as public school teachers. The levels of bureaucracy and having to bow down to "experts" who decide what you can and can't do for your community--particularly when they don't know shit about your community or bother to visit your community, even to do site visits to hold you accountable (ahem ahem), just really sucks. Like, mach 1 level of suckage. In all ugly honesty I'm irritated and disgusted by the flippant attitudes and completely unfocused approach of so called "leaders" in MSM prevention--in Boston, in New England, throughout the nation. I respect those who are behind the scenes doing the actual work and sweating blood trying to get funding and resources where they should go, rather than pissed away.

But now that I've got like 5 years under my belt I can actually see the differences that have been made. Like, big time changes that me and my colleagues have accomplished here. And I'm proud of that. I'm also proud to see youth in my community stepping up to take on this fight as well. It gives me a good deal of hope.

I still want to go back to school. One of my dreams is to get a doctorate. But now I don't think I want to run away screaming from this career in order to do that.
17 August 2009 @ 10:18 am

Transfabulous Brunch: A Benefit for the Transgender Emergency Fund

Sunday, August 23rd  2009, 11AM-2PM

86 Winter American Bistro, 65 Water Street, Worcester

$20.00 at the door, includes brunch and juice/coffee

About the Transgender Emergency Fund:

The Transgender Emergency Fund responds to the needs of transgender people living in Massachusetts by providing immediate, short-term financial assistance to help  low-income transgender people with basic human needs.

 The Transgender Emergency Fund is currently accepting donations. The fund has virtually no overhead costs. Every penny donated will go directly to people in need.

To donate to the fund,  make out checks to AIDS Project Worcester with “Transgender  Emergency Fund” written in the memo line. Send donations to:

Transgender Emergency Fund

c/o AIDS Project Worcester

85 Green Street

Worcester, MA 01604

OR make an online donation:


All donations are tax deductible!

27 April 2009 @ 03:54 pm

08 April 2009 @ 02:50 pm

I am not happy with the new federally-funded prevention campaign. I think it's great that the Obama administration is funding prevention in this country--already a hell of a lot more than Bush ever bothered to do--but it misses the mark. For those who don't know I'm talking about the newly-released '9 and 1/2 minutes' ad campaign. You can see it here:


First of all the TV spots only say "get the facts about aids". Well, what are those facts? A little more information please? Not everyone is going to be able to log on to visit the fancy website to see those facts.
There are no images of MSM, and the website only mentions MSM twice--once as "bearing the greatest burden" and one other time to get vaccinated for Hep A+B. MSM make up 53% of all new infections in this country! Therefore this messaging should speak to us! It doesn't--the website has tons of pictures of men and women together in what are (to me) obvious coupling situations. There are no such images of men together. There is only one image with two separate white men that look "stereotypical" but no men of color together.
That probably has to do with no-promo-homo still being on the books (thanks, Jesse Helms, I hope it's nice and warm where you are) but I still think it sucks. What a disappointment. I hope that our friends in DC and Atlanta can get it together and roll out a major campaign targeting MSM.
08 April 2009 @ 10:28 am
For those who celebrate, have a blessed Passover and Holy Week!
19 March 2009 @ 12:09 pm

I listened to a short but informative podcast about HIV risk and trans MSM. It's available for free here: